A mother of two who says she has been battling major depression for a while shared a very deep and emotional post about depression.
The woman, whose name is Chrissie Gaddies shared photos of her messy bedroom on Facebook and explained why people who have almost ''everything'' still commit suicide because they are depressed.
I was my bedroom yesterday morning. I'm not posting this because I'm proud of it or to be funny. I'm posting this because THIS IS WHAT DEPRESSION LOOKS LIKE. Certainly, there are moments when depression looks like crying and all that stereotypical stuff, but this is what everyday life looks like when you are living with major depression. I pull myself together enough to keep my boys alive and taken care of. We don't miss appointments. We do extracurricular activities. We go to church and to the park. I text friends to check on them and pay my bills. I do what needs to be done. Everything in the apartment gets cleaned except my room. Not intentionally, it just happens.
I've never survived a natural disaster like a tornado or hurricane but I've seen the aftermath on TV. People hide in a safe place to ride out the storm and when everything is calm again they come out and see the damage. That's what living with depression is like for me. I ride it out and then on a day when I wake up and things are good I look around to assess the damage and clean up. And then I wait for the next storm to hit. It could be a day or a few weeks. But it's always coming back.
I've been reading several posts about the recent suicides of celebrities. People have been making these comments about money can't buy happiness and how success can't fill voids in your life. Those words are nice, but they aren't the whole picture. Kate Spade and Anthony B probably loved their work. It probably brought joy and fulfillment to their lives. Just like I love my boys and wouldn't trade being their mom for anything. Depression doesn't care. It holds your head under the water until it decides to let go. And sometimes you just get tired of holding your breath.
The people in your life living with major depression don't look depressed. They get up every day and present well. They are fighting with everything inside of them to be and feel normal. If you're looking for someone in a corner crying you're probably not going to find that.
Just love us where we are. Don't push us to heal or shame us for taking meds. Don't tell us all the things that help you when you're feeling sad. Just love us. Don't try to do life for us. If you offered to clean my room I would tell you no. Not because of shame or pride but because I know my good day is coming and I know how great it's going to feel when I can clean my room, or cook dinner, or whatever it is that I haven't been able to do during the storm.
#depression #majordepression #mentalhealth #unconditionallove #survivor #warrior #suicide
Wednesday, 13 June 2018
Nigerian pharmacist in Chicago shoots dead his wife, their 8 year old daughter, and commits suicide
The dead bodies of three family members were found in a home in west suburban Chicago. It has now been revealed that they are Nigerians and it was a murder-suicide carried out by the father.
Olasunkanmi Esho,42, a Nigerian Pharmacist living in Chicago, shot his Cameroonian wife, Bourk Esho, 33, and their 7-year-old daughter, Olivia Esho, after which he shot and killed himself.
The Darien Police Department says officers responding to a call about shots fired in a home in the 7500-block of Farmingdale Drive, found the bodies about 1 a.m. Sunday.
They are survived by their 13-year-old son and 4-year-old daughter. The 8-year-old reportedly died in the arms of her 13-year-old brother. According to reports, the teenager heard gunshots outside and ran to call his mom to report the incident, not knowing their dad had shot their mom. On getting there, he saw his sister bleeding and he carried her to seek for help but she died in his arms.
Olasunkanmi Esho,42, a Nigerian Pharmacist living in Chicago, shot his Cameroonian wife, Bourk Esho, 33, and their 7-year-old daughter, Olivia Esho, after which he shot and killed himself.
The Darien Police Department says officers responding to a call about shots fired in a home in the 7500-block of Farmingdale Drive, found the bodies about 1 a.m. Sunday.
They are survived by their 13-year-old son and 4-year-old daughter. The 8-year-old reportedly died in the arms of her 13-year-old brother. According to reports, the teenager heard gunshots outside and ran to call his mom to report the incident, not knowing their dad had shot their mom. On getting there, he saw his sister bleeding and he carried her to seek for help but she died in his arms.
Nigerian Army neutralizes 23 Boko Haram Insurgents, recover arms
According to a statement issued by the Director, Army Public Relations, Brig.-Gen. Texas Chukwu, the terrorists were killed during an operation carried out by soldiers in the Lake Chad region on Monday.
He however said some of the insurgents escaped with gunshot wounds. The operation, he disclosed further, was carried out by troops of 153 Task Force Battalion in conjunction with the support of its Cameroonian Defence Forces counterpart.
Some of the items said to have been recovered were six AK 47 rifles, two FN rifles, eight AK 47 rifle magazines, 33 rounds of 7.62 mm NATO ammunition, one link of 7.62mm NATO and two motorcycles.
ARMY NEUTRALIZES 23 BOKO HARAM TERRORISTS, RECOVER WEAPONS— Nigerian Army (@HQNigerianArmy) June 12, 2018
Troops of 153 Task Force Battalion in conjunction with elements of Cameroonian Defence Forces while on clearance operation on 11 June 2018, encountered Boko Haram terrorists. pic.twitter.com/ReapW0dKTA
SPOTTED -Drake seen on a date night with Curvy Model Zmeena. Her curves are provocative, see photos
Well its not news that Canadian rapper, Drake a thing for curvy women, what is news is the curve on this mami, this lady's curve are provocative!
Drake was this week spotted on a date with a curvy model identified as Zmeena in Toronto and her body deserves some accolades. The pair were pictured leaving Sotto Sotto Ristorante in Toronto together.
See more eye-popping photos of Zmeena below.
Drake was this week spotted on a date with a curvy model identified as Zmeena in Toronto and her body deserves some accolades. The pair were pictured leaving Sotto Sotto Ristorante in Toronto together.
See more eye-popping photos of Zmeena below.
Stop confusing Nigerians. It is not possible to honor MKO Abiola in one breathe and and then admire his tormentor in another breath - Soyinka
Nobel laureate Prof. Wole Soyinka today told President Buhari that honroing late Chief MKO Abiola and praising his ''tormentor in chief'' was quite confusing.
Prof. Soyinka spoke at the Presidential Villa during the conferment of posthumous award of Grand Commander of the Federal Republic (GCFR) on the presumed winner of the June 12 presidential election, the Late Moshood Kashimawo Olawale Abiola.
Though the Nobel Laureate did not mention any name, his words pointed to the late dictator, Gen. Sani Abacha who President Buhari had praised in recent times. Speaking at the event, Soyinka said
“I would like to make a request Mr President that you stop creating confusion in the minds of Nigerians. Stop confusing Nigerians. It is not possible to honor MKO Abiola in one breathe and and then admire his tormentor in another breath. Loyalty is all very well but that loyalty can become perverse if that loyalty is retained to an individual who if he were alive today, would be before the international court of crimes against humanity, one who broke the laws of Nigeria, committed crimes humanity. It is confusing if professional loyalty is carried so far.
We had a private conversation sometime ago and remember that one of the things I mentioned to you was this, You are fighting corruption, how come it that a notorious corrupt ruler is honored by one of the most important avenues in the FCT. The answer you gave to me was not too satisfactory but I let it pass. Today perhaps is also a day for us to inaugurate our hall of shame to future generations'' he said
Prof. Soyinka spoke at the Presidential Villa during the conferment of posthumous award of Grand Commander of the Federal Republic (GCFR) on the presumed winner of the June 12 presidential election, the Late Moshood Kashimawo Olawale Abiola.
Though the Nobel Laureate did not mention any name, his words pointed to the late dictator, Gen. Sani Abacha who President Buhari had praised in recent times. Speaking at the event, Soyinka said
“I would like to make a request Mr President that you stop creating confusion in the minds of Nigerians. Stop confusing Nigerians. It is not possible to honor MKO Abiola in one breathe and and then admire his tormentor in another breath. Loyalty is all very well but that loyalty can become perverse if that loyalty is retained to an individual who if he were alive today, would be before the international court of crimes against humanity, one who broke the laws of Nigeria, committed crimes humanity. It is confusing if professional loyalty is carried so far.
We had a private conversation sometime ago and remember that one of the things I mentioned to you was this, You are fighting corruption, how come it that a notorious corrupt ruler is honored by one of the most important avenues in the FCT. The answer you gave to me was not too satisfactory but I let it pass. Today perhaps is also a day for us to inaugurate our hall of shame to future generations'' he said
Tuesday, 30 January 2018
You Think Beyonce is a Diva? Try Blu Ivy.
Blue Ivy Carter may only be six but she already has a personal stylist, chef, sportswear line and wears £6,000 frocks. Get the picture?
Daily mail has given us an insight on the weight this six year old is pulling.
She was taken to the Grammy Awards on Sunday night in LA (something of a tradition — she's been attending since 2015).
Seated between her parents, she shushed them with effortless authority when they started clapping singer Camila Cabello during her speech — and caused an instant internet sensation.
Of course, you can't entirely blame the child for her high-handed attitude. But it's worth considering the peculiar lifestyle which has allowed her to get away with being so spectacularly bossy.
While other children may be playing in the park and having fishfingers for tea, Blue Ivy is already a mogul-in-the-making. She has her own staff, a personal stylist, a chef and bodyguards. Plans are already afoot for her to launch her own fragrance and clothing lines and her commercial worth is such that her name is being trade-marked.
Her lifestyle is beyond lavish. Home is one of five mega-properties — two in Los Angeles and one each in New York, The Hamptons and Miami. Birthday parties are screechingly overstated affairs, and, yes, she already has a pony. Truly a pampered billion-dollar princess.
HER DEDICATED STAFF
it's fair to suggest Blue Ivy is never short of attention. There are two full-time nannies. Her younger siblings — twins Sir and Rumi who were born last June — also have two nannies each.
Before she started school, the nannies were reportedly giving Blue Ivy a head start in French, Swahili and art.
The same report suggested she is a 'picky eater' which will be a challenge for the chef, who apparently tempts her with wholewheat pasta shaped like ballet dancers and pureed asparagus.
There is also a full time security detail. There were reports that when she was born, in New York's Lenox Hill hospital in 2012, the security entourage was enormous and obstructed other hospital visitors.
When it comes to getting dressed, she calls on the services of stylist Manuel Mendez, who is based in New York and employed by Parkwood, Beyonce's management company. For the past two years Blue Ivy has been styled by Manuel, rather than sharing a stylist with her mother, who is looked after by Ty Hunter, or her father who is dressed by June Ambrose.
Obviously all three fashion experts talk to each other about their plans — hence the striking monochrome theme at the Grammys on Sunday night where the parents wore black and she wore white.
Adoring daddy Jay-Z — real name Shawn Carter, a reformed drug dealer turned superstar rapper and producer — seems to be keen to launch his tot into the business. She became the youngest person featured in a chart single when the noise of her heartbeat taken from an ultrasound scan featured in his 2012 song Glory.
He used a recording of her first cries on the same track. His 2017 album 4:44 (which failed to win in any of the eight Grammy categories in which it was nominated) included a track titled Blue's Freestyle/We Family. It is a 40-second showcase of his daughter rapping. Some of it is unintelligible but she does shout out 'Boomshakalaka!' although it's a little too soon to say if she has talent.
She has a 'Feat. Blue Ivy' credit on the piano ballad Blue on her mum's 2013 album Beyonce.
Blue Ivy also has a starring turn in Jay-Z's track Family Feud, and is featured in the seven-minute video, released this month.
The song is about the damage caused by his infidelity and in the video he is seen confessing his sins in church while Blue Ivy sits on a pew and mum Beyonce wanders around.
He sings: 'Yeah I'll **** up a good thing if you let me. Let me alone, Becky' a reference to 'Becky with the good hair' who Beyonce said he cheated with in her album Lemonade. Many would question the wisdom of letting a six-year-old star in a music video about the downsides of cheating on your wife. Perhaps it's little wonder she is good at making the shushing movement to Mum and Dad.
A SPECIAL SCHOOL
Nothing but the best is good enough for Blue Ivy, and she attends the Center for Early Education in Los Angeles.
The family moved from New York to the West Coast last year so she could attend — on the urging of Beyonce's close friend Gwyneth Paltrow, who insists there's no better place to raise a family.
The CEE costs between £15,000 and £21,000 a year which Jay-Z, 48, and Beyonce, 36, can easily afford as they are worth a combined £887 million. Founded by psychoanalysts in 1939 it is a progressive school and wildly oversubscribed — 1,000 applicants chase 60 places each year.
The children of Jack Nicholson, Jodie Foster and Barbra Streisand have all attended. Last year Beyonce performed at the school's annual concert — a whopping affair held at the Shrine auditorium which also hosts the Oscars. Not to be outdone, Blue Ivy took centre stage in a ballet routine.
AMAZING SPACES
In September, Beyonce and Jay-Z spent £18.5 million on a home in the Hamptons. The house has seven bedrooms.
They own a huge three-floor apartment in New York and are renting a mansion in Malibu for £306,000 a month that has four pools and bullet-proof glass.
Last summer they were reported to have added their most impressive home yet to their property portfilio when they bought a £95 million pile in Bel Air. It is not known if they have yet moved from their other LA home.
It has eight bedrooms, 11 bathrooms and garage with space for 15 cars. A real estate source said: 'The house is beyond words. No expense was spared.'
Blue Ivy's first home in New York had a £14,000 cot shaped like a royal carriage and her parents spent £50,000 on a Barbie doll encrusted with diamonds.
The family also has a £170 million, 2.5-acre private island off Florida — bought for Beyonce's 29th birthday.
SOURCE - Daily Mail US
Daily mail has given us an insight on the weight this six year old is pulling.
She was taken to the Grammy Awards on Sunday night in LA (something of a tradition — she's been attending since 2015).
Seated between her parents, she shushed them with effortless authority when they started clapping singer Camila Cabello during her speech — and caused an instant internet sensation.
Of course, you can't entirely blame the child for her high-handed attitude. But it's worth considering the peculiar lifestyle which has allowed her to get away with being so spectacularly bossy.
While other children may be playing in the park and having fishfingers for tea, Blue Ivy is already a mogul-in-the-making. She has her own staff, a personal stylist, a chef and bodyguards. Plans are already afoot for her to launch her own fragrance and clothing lines and her commercial worth is such that her name is being trade-marked.
Her lifestyle is beyond lavish. Home is one of five mega-properties — two in Los Angeles and one each in New York, The Hamptons and Miami. Birthday parties are screechingly overstated affairs, and, yes, she already has a pony. Truly a pampered billion-dollar princess.
HER DEDICATED STAFF
it's fair to suggest Blue Ivy is never short of attention. There are two full-time nannies. Her younger siblings — twins Sir and Rumi who were born last June — also have two nannies each.
Before she started school, the nannies were reportedly giving Blue Ivy a head start in French, Swahili and art.
The same report suggested she is a 'picky eater' which will be a challenge for the chef, who apparently tempts her with wholewheat pasta shaped like ballet dancers and pureed asparagus.
There is also a full time security detail. There were reports that when she was born, in New York's Lenox Hill hospital in 2012, the security entourage was enormous and obstructed other hospital visitors.
When it comes to getting dressed, she calls on the services of stylist Manuel Mendez, who is based in New York and employed by Parkwood, Beyonce's management company. For the past two years Blue Ivy has been styled by Manuel, rather than sharing a stylist with her mother, who is looked after by Ty Hunter, or her father who is dressed by June Ambrose.
Obviously all three fashion experts talk to each other about their plans — hence the striking monochrome theme at the Grammys on Sunday night where the parents wore black and she wore white.
Adoring daddy Jay-Z — real name Shawn Carter, a reformed drug dealer turned superstar rapper and producer — seems to be keen to launch his tot into the business. She became the youngest person featured in a chart single when the noise of her heartbeat taken from an ultrasound scan featured in his 2012 song Glory.
He used a recording of her first cries on the same track. His 2017 album 4:44 (which failed to win in any of the eight Grammy categories in which it was nominated) included a track titled Blue's Freestyle/We Family. It is a 40-second showcase of his daughter rapping. Some of it is unintelligible but she does shout out 'Boomshakalaka!' although it's a little too soon to say if she has talent.
She has a 'Feat. Blue Ivy' credit on the piano ballad Blue on her mum's 2013 album Beyonce.
Blue Ivy also has a starring turn in Jay-Z's track Family Feud, and is featured in the seven-minute video, released this month.
The song is about the damage caused by his infidelity and in the video he is seen confessing his sins in church while Blue Ivy sits on a pew and mum Beyonce wanders around.
He sings: 'Yeah I'll **** up a good thing if you let me. Let me alone, Becky' a reference to 'Becky with the good hair' who Beyonce said he cheated with in her album Lemonade. Many would question the wisdom of letting a six-year-old star in a music video about the downsides of cheating on your wife. Perhaps it's little wonder she is good at making the shushing movement to Mum and Dad.
A SPECIAL SCHOOL
Nothing but the best is good enough for Blue Ivy, and she attends the Center for Early Education in Los Angeles.
The family moved from New York to the West Coast last year so she could attend — on the urging of Beyonce's close friend Gwyneth Paltrow, who insists there's no better place to raise a family.
The CEE costs between £15,000 and £21,000 a year which Jay-Z, 48, and Beyonce, 36, can easily afford as they are worth a combined £887 million. Founded by psychoanalysts in 1939 it is a progressive school and wildly oversubscribed — 1,000 applicants chase 60 places each year.
The children of Jack Nicholson, Jodie Foster and Barbra Streisand have all attended. Last year Beyonce performed at the school's annual concert — a whopping affair held at the Shrine auditorium which also hosts the Oscars. Not to be outdone, Blue Ivy took centre stage in a ballet routine.
AMAZING SPACES
In September, Beyonce and Jay-Z spent £18.5 million on a home in the Hamptons. The house has seven bedrooms.
They own a huge three-floor apartment in New York and are renting a mansion in Malibu for £306,000 a month that has four pools and bullet-proof glass.
Last summer they were reported to have added their most impressive home yet to their property portfilio when they bought a £95 million pile in Bel Air. It is not known if they have yet moved from their other LA home.
It has eight bedrooms, 11 bathrooms and garage with space for 15 cars. A real estate source said: 'The house is beyond words. No expense was spared.'
Blue Ivy's first home in New York had a £14,000 cot shaped like a royal carriage and her parents spent £50,000 on a Barbie doll encrusted with diamonds.
The family also has a £170 million, 2.5-acre private island off Florida — bought for Beyonce's 29th birthday.
SOURCE - Daily Mail US
Topless Kim Kardashian holds open a fur coat to expose her milk shakes as she shares series of VERY racy snaps
What is happening here??! well we all know shes a sucker for racy photos. The 37 year old reality star/business mogul stood holding a fur coat open to expose her body, wearing nothing but a skimpy pair of panties.
Before posting the image Kim had blurred the nipple of her exposed breast. Great! As if it makes it any better.
The mother of three posed in a skimpy bikini on the beach for a shot posted earlier on Monday.
The image was inspired by Bo Derek's breakout 1979 10, and featured Kim lounging on the beach in Malibu wearing a bikini.
Like Bo's, her hair was braided in corn rows prompting some to accuse her of cultural appropriation.
Well, Kim on her 'I don't give a f**k' type attitude, who also wore her hair in braids for the later fur coat image. See more photos below
the original
Before posting the image Kim had blurred the nipple of her exposed breast. Great! As if it makes it any better.
The mother of three posed in a skimpy bikini on the beach for a shot posted earlier on Monday.
The image was inspired by Bo Derek's breakout 1979 10, and featured Kim lounging on the beach in Malibu wearing a bikini.
Like Bo's, her hair was braided in corn rows prompting some to accuse her of cultural appropriation.
Well, Kim on her 'I don't give a f**k' type attitude, who also wore her hair in braids for the later fur coat image. See more photos below
the original
Grammys 2018: List of winners
The 60th annual Grammy Awards, hosted by James Corden on Sunday, was huge for Bruno Mars. He won three out of the four major categories for "24K Magic" and "That's How I Like It," and took home six Grammys in all. Kendrick Lamar followed as the night's second biggest winner, claiming five Grammys. See Full list of winners below
Full list of Grammy winners:
Album of the year
"24K Magic," Bruno Mars
Record of the year
"24K Magic," Bruno Mars
Song of the year
"That's What I Like," Bruno Mars
Country album
"From a Room, Vol. 1," Chris Stapleton
New artist
Alessia Cara
Comedy album
"The Age of Spin & Deep in the Heart of Texas," Dave Chappelle
Rap album
"DAMN.," Kendrick Lamar
New artist
Alessia Cara
Rap/sung performance
"Loyalty," Kendrick Lamar feat. Rihanna
Pop solo performance
"Shape of You," Ed Sheeran
Pop vocal album
"÷," Ed Sheeran
Traditional pop vocal album
"Tony Bennett Celebrates 90," various artists
Pop duo/group performance
"Feel It Still," Portugal. The Man
Country song
"Broken Halos," Chris Stapleton
Country solo performance
"Either Way," Chris Stapleton
Country duo/group performance
"Better Man," Little Big Town
Rap song
"HUMBLE.," Kendrick Lamar
Rap performance (single or track)
"HUMBLE.," Kendrick Lamar
R&B album
"24K Magic," Bruno Mars
Urban contemporary album
"Starboy," The Weeknd
R&B song
"That's What I Like," Bruno Mars
Traditional R&B performance
"Redbone," Childish Gambino
R&B performance
"That's What I Like," Bruno Mars
Alternative music album
"Sleep Well Beast," The National
Rock album
"A Deeper Understanding," The War on Drugs
Rock song
"Run," Foo Fighters
Metal performance
"Sultan's Curse," Mastodon
Rock performance (single or track)
"You Want It Darker," Leonard Cohen
American roots song
"If We Were Vampires," Jason Isbell And The 400 Unit
American roots performance
"Killer Diller Blues," Alabama Shakes
Contemporary Christian album
"Chain Breaker," Zach Williams
Gospel album
"Let Them Fall in Love," CeCe Winans
Jazz instrumental album
"Rebirth," Billy Childs
New age album
"Dancing on Water," Peter Kater
Song written for visual media
"How Far I'll Go (Moana)," Lin-Manuel Miranda
Score soundtrack for visual media
"La La Land"
Compilation soundtrack for visual media
"La La Land"
Musical theater album
"Dear Evan Hansen"
Spoken word album
"The Princess Diarist," Carrie Fisher
Latin pop album
"El Dorado," Shakira
Music film
"The Defiant Ones," various artists
Music video
"HUMBLE.," Kendrick Lamar
Contemporary instrumental album
"Prototype," Jeff Lorber Fusion
Dance/electronic album
"3-D The Catalogue," Kraftwerk
Dance recording
"Tonite," LCD Soundsystem
For a complete list of winners in all categories, visit Grammy.com.
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